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what callous gave

You know it when it comes for you

It starts slowly

Not suffocating at first

You feel it, thick

Sticking to your skin

Flooding over your body

Before you have time to take a breath

You are drowning

Floating but unable to swim

Sinking but unable to move

Struggling but staying still

You know it when it comes for you

It starts slowly

Not suffocating at first

It fills your mouth

Your throat

Your lungs

Like honey, enveloping you

No sweetness can reach these depths

You scream but there is no sound

You cry but there are no tears

They tell you to breathe

Breathe deeply

Long and slow

But that sometimes only makes it take you down quicker

You know it when it comes for you

It starts slowly

Not suffocating at first

What you don’t know is why

What caused the flood this time

What made your heart stop, deadly

What net dredged up the muck

What callous gave way

The hardened skin peeling back

Red, and tender bleeding

Submerged and saturated

Waiting for someone to drag you back out

But sometimes

you drag them in with you

You know it when it comes for you

It starts slowly

Not suffocating at first

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12 thoughts on “what callous gave”

  1. Beautiful AmberFairy. I feel you so much through your words and presence. Sometimes you remind me of myself and it’s eerie. But I enjoy it. We lose ourselves in mulch and floods and quicksand and we drown only to be revived and once again suffocated by the next… experience.
    You’ve got the power within you, though. Your words will cleanse your soul and the love you manifest through your beautiful self and presence in everyone’s lives will save you.

    ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. This bleed got to me, claustrophobically.
    “Waiting for someone to drag you back out
    But sometimes
    you drag them in with you”
    Those lines are so visceral and so true sometimes. Your writing made me uncomfortable, in a good way! For a bad reason – your experience. ❤ Hugs, Lemons.

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